the monday awards... brought to you by the letter "j"

a couple of awards, given at my discretion for actions and non-actions alike which deserve, in my humble opinion, some kind of honor.

the "Flip-Side of a Coin Well-Spent" Award
this award is humbly, and with honest gratitude, offered to jerry.
having been in a place where i have written things to people in the past, my former church and my former best friend included, they have consistantly and unreservedly burned me, calling me "manipulative", charging me with deliberately provoking their emotions, as though it had nothing at all to do with MY emotions at all, like i live my life just to twist other people into serving my purposes. they've told me to "take it somewhere else", that i should just pack up my emotional insecurites and peddle them in another venue. they've said a lot of hurtful things.
so yesterday, shortly after creating my post, i sent jerry a link to it. and within an hour of that email, jerry had mailed me back, asking me to meet him. and, upon my arrival, i was met with not only an apology, but an honest opportunity to express my feelings and have them validated, and to hear the other side of the story, and offer my own appologies where necessary.
this is what human interraction is supposed to be about. honesty. people caring about other people.
not in a very, very long time has someone willingly interracted with me in such a selfless way, and i will not soon forget, nor ever stop appreciating how it made me feel, just for once, not to be scorned and brushed aside, not to be spurned, not to be further debilitated by the responses of others to my various weaknesses and failings.
thank you, Jerry.

the "Ricky C. Quanced Me on that Sack of Dank" Award
given generously to Tall J, who is always welcoming in a safe and peaceful way, who almost unconsciously (or so it seems) displays, in the little subtle things he says and does, that he cares for the people he's with regardless of who they are or whether or not they deserve it, and whose company is just genuinely enjoyable, no matter what, if anything, is actually happening. sometimes, it's nice to just talk about random stuff, laugh more than you've laughed in a week, and recognize that simple things are just as good as complex ones.
thanks, J., "you rock the radocity of the world"

that pretty much wraps up anything i might want to say, so have a good one, and remember, you can't spell jenerosity without j... although if you were to do so, your odds of passing english would be slightly higher.