what does perfection mean?

a note... i'm just musing out loud, so don't take anything you might perceive within these lines as terribly serious or imperative. however, feel free to offer a word or two of advice or understanding if it is yours to offer.

i've owned a lot of cars.
still, i seek the perfect automobile.
sometimes, i think i've found one... it has all the features i want, all the options, all the capabilities that set it apart from the lemons in the newspaper ads.
but you know, despite the way it handles, the brilliant sound of the sound system, the incredibly smooth suspension, there is something about it that just doesn't quite sit right. don't ask me why, there's probably no logical reason for it, i'm just not quite comfortable, i feel like i'm constantly a visitor in it, like it belongs to someone else and i'm just driving it in their absense, and it keeps the drive from being the real experience i'm looking for.
but it could always be me... maybe i'm just off. maybe, if i were feeling a little better about myself, i would be more at peace with the new wheels.
or maybe i need to change what i'm looking for.
i guess i'm just not sure what's important, as usual. i mean, it seems stupid to me, from a logic standpoint, to drive something that doesn't handle all that well, that makes noise, that might not be as certain to impress people or win awards or show others that i'm smart and capable and able to always make the best choice.
but what is it to anyone but me, if in the end, i spend my life making all the "right" choices and still feeling marginally wrong? isn't that just as silly?
maybe i'd be happier owning the jalopy and borrowing the roadster sometimes, because it's fun to drive but might not be the car i understand.
i dunno. i'm babbling i think. it's often a mistake for me to think out loud, even when that thinking is obscured in the safety of unrelated words... i muse, but in the end, i will let time and experience tell the tale... i will continue, for the time being, to drive the new car, and hope that the awkwardness i feel will dissipate.